MOH Recipient Dakota Meyer on Struggle
First, a quick housekeeping note. I am back from Afghanistan and working on my article about the embed. It will be in the July issue of the Magazine. What a great experience. The guys and gals with the 3rd ESC and Able COmpany 3-66 AR treated me phenomenally well. Once I get a chance to sort through my notes and videos, I should have more for you.
Today I read a post by MOH Recipient Dakota Meyer at his new blog, "Actions not Words." Entitled "Struggle" it is incredibly tough to read, and my heart really goes out to him:
They say time heals all wounds, but for me, it seems that the longer I wait and the more time that has passed, the harder it gets.
Marines are supposed to be the toughest men on Earth, but I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm struggling. This week was especially hard because Tuesday was the 8th of the month. My guys were killed on the 8th of September, 2009. I'll admit that this week was filled with lots of tears, bad days and bad thoughts...
I accept the responsibility of being a failure. I hold myself accountable everyday and let everyone know that a failure is what I am; not a hero, as so many people have called me. I cringe when I hear that word.
Everyday, and especially on the days when I don't even want to get out of bed, I look down at my wrists and I see their names and I know I have no choice but to push on in their honor and for sacrificies they gave!!!
Ooof. The fact that this man could think he failed makes my chest hurt. Go read the whole thing and leave him some encouragement.